Produced, Mixed and Mastered by Jas Aviva
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anchorage
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boom bap
sampled
old school hiphop
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Lyrics
So read my fate to me, and Ill act like I believe it
Ive branded my wrists in gold,
Searched the words for meanings
decode, encode, decompose
Sometimes its difficult to see the significance of this
Ive been absent of meaning
till Ive convinced myself that maybe thats the meaning
So wash over me your ideologies and insufferable explanations
Im decades in my decadence
My faith is in impermanence
Ive bound myself in adornments
Till my sins disenchant me and Im looking for more of them
Like its glimmer doesnt mean as much as before I had it, of course it did
Id rather anything that gets me high instead
My wings are only for show,
But this view no longer feels like home to me
My sins like fire, most of it is broken porcelain
Alive like dead stars condensed into organisms
Sometimes its difficult to see the significance of this
Ive convinced myself the universe is performative and Im just here to witness it
Persuasive and persistent:
This loop of fire and reincarnated hopelessness
Even angels get tired of pointing at doors that cant open
So whats your reason that your demons never leave you?
That your black and whites are see through
That your highs and lows mislead you?
Ive been
Illusory and deceitful
A beautiful view thats lost its meaning
Indulgent nor indifference
Neither path has brought enlightenment
Still no amount of colors could mix in that saturation
With heaven and hell etched in its canvas,
Theyre beginning to look the same
And its fine
We dont always have to live in black or white, or the brightest colors all the time
I prefer shadows and inverted lines
Id rather anything that gets me high instead
Ive used my wings for show
And its gotten me anything Ive ever wanted
So Ill burn my sins alive;
In hedonism and nihilism
Is where I am most comfortable looking into the void at
Somewhere in the sacrifice of stars;
Was I fated to acknowledge
That what we think is ours
Only fractures into parts
So dissolve me in your ideologies
Introduce me into oblivion
If I cant have absolutes,
Then Ill take it and make it obsolete
Is nothing more than beautiful destruction and borrowed carbon
And the flames will arrive at my door the morning Ive set myself up
Is nothing more than a fallen star that I became a part of
Misplaced within disorder;
With my sins collecting dust
A fragment of collapse
Ive been an inevitable crash
Somewhere in me, that embers burning
Somewhere Ill have to give it back
So read my fate to me - and Ill act like I believe it
Ive branded my wrists in gold
Searched the words for meaning
Whats the reason